Pray for Grant

Saturday, July 18 - 3:13 p.m.

Posted by Melanie McTaggart on Saturday, July 18, 2009
Grant spiked another fever around 2:00 a.m. and then another around noon today. So, we will be here for at least two more days. I think the earliest we will get to go home is on Tuesday. The Dr.s want to see Grant's numbers trend upwards for several days before releasing him. Then we would be right back here on Wednesday for a spinal tap and chemo. Then, if we are lucky, we could stay home for a few days before checking back in for the next round of "hospital chemo." Right now, Grant's ANC number is 0. It has to be at 750 before the next round of hospital chemo.

Today has been a rough one - for all of us. I am on edge and can't seem to find my smile or chipper personality anywhere. Grant is just a bear! All he wants to do is fuss and cry. I don't blame him. That is all I want to do and I am not the one who is sick. David is going to stay with him tonight so I can go home with Claire tonight and regroup. I need it! I have lost all patience with everyone. I am so sorry for that. Hopefully a good night sleep will give me the strength I need to push forward tomorrow and be the rock I try so hard to be for my family. It seems like when I am down, I bring everyone else that way and when I am doing well, so is the rest of our family. I hate for them to see me like this so I took an hour drive today. I never had a destination, just drove and drove. When I got back to the hospital, I was a little better. Sometimes I just feel like screaming and crying and hitting something. Leukemia Sucks and so does being here!



 

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Melanie McTaggart I am the proud mom and Claire and Grant. I am so blessed to have them in my life!

Saturday, July 18 - 3:13 p.m.

Posted by Melanie McTaggart on Saturday, July 18, 2009
Grant spiked another fever around 2:00 a.m. and then another around noon today. So, we will be here for at least two more days. I think the earliest we will get to go home is on Tuesday. The Dr.s want to see Grant's numbers trend upwards for several days before releasing him. Then we would be right back here on Wednesday for a spinal tap and chemo. Then, if we are lucky, we could stay home for a few days before checking back in for the next round of "hospital chemo." Right now, Grant's ANC number is 0. It has to be at 750 before the next round of hospital chemo.

Today has been a rough one - for all of us. I am on edge and can't seem to find my smile or chipper personality anywhere. Grant is just a bear! All he wants to do is fuss and cry. I don't blame him. That is all I want to do and I am not the one who is sick. David is going to stay with him tonight so I can go home with Claire tonight and regroup. I need it! I have lost all patience with everyone. I am so sorry for that. Hopefully a good night sleep will give me the strength I need to push forward tomorrow and be the rock I try so hard to be for my family. It seems like when I am down, I bring everyone else that way and when I am doing well, so is the rest of our family. I hate for them to see me like this so I took an hour drive today. I never had a destination, just drove and drove. When I got back to the hospital, I was a little better. Sometimes I just feel like screaming and crying and hitting something. Leukemia Sucks and so does being here!