Pray for Grant

Sunday, Aug. 2 - 8:34 p.m.

Posted by Melanie McTaggart on Monday, August 3, 2009

Gut Wrenching. That is the only way to describe the day we all had today. I went home last night with Claire and I thought Grant was turning a corner and looking better. So, when I walked into his room this morning, I was astonished to see how bad he looked. Grant looked just awful. His eyes had so much fluid surrounding them he looked as if he had been punched. And that was not the worst part. Grant was shaking uncontrollably. He has run a fever all day that bounced around between 102.6 and 103.3. Then, on top of that, he has chronic diarrhea and threw up all day. He has not eaten in days so the only thing he is throwing up is bile - which burns his throat. And did I mention the mouth soars? Yes, he now has mouth soars all over his throat and mouth and probably all the way down into his stomach - which is causing him to not want to swallow - so he keeps spitting up copious amounts of mucus. It is just terrible. It absolutely kills me to see him like this. Oh - and his ANC number plummeted from 2500 yesterday to only 120 today. Tomorrow they expect it to be about 0, which means he will not have the ability to fight an infection.

I pray to God that He helps him recover from this round of chemo tomorrow. He needs to eat. He needs to be able to keep SOMETHING down - especially the important drug Gleevec that is saving his life. He needs his kidneys to flush out all the drugs that are left in his system. He needs the fever to go away so he will stop shaking. He needs his ANC to quickly bounce back - and that may take a week. The nurse just informed me that the mouth soars won't go away until the ANC comes back. Uhhh. If they need to, they will put Grant on IV nourishment tomorrow.

Please pray with me. We really, really need to catch a break. I need my family to be under one roof for a week, or at the very least, for one weekend. Grant is such a strong little guy but I just don’t know how much of this he can take. I don’t want all of this to break his spirit.

I was talking with another mother tonight about how angry I get at this situation sometimes. The outcome of all of this better be that he is a happy, healthy little boy that does not have any serious long-term side effects. It is so hard to watch your child suffer through all of this. If I end up losing him, I will be so mad that I have put him and his little body through this war. I don’t want to torture him - and so many days feel like I am doing just that - torturing him and watching him suffer as we fight to save his life.



 

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Melanie McTaggart I am the proud mom and Claire and Grant. I am so blessed to have them in my life!

Sunday, Aug. 2 - 8:34 p.m.

Posted by Melanie McTaggart on Monday, August 3, 2009

Gut Wrenching. That is the only way to describe the day we all had today. I went home last night with Claire and I thought Grant was turning a corner and looking better. So, when I walked into his room this morning, I was astonished to see how bad he looked. Grant looked just awful. His eyes had so much fluid surrounding them he looked as if he had been punched. And that was not the worst part. Grant was shaking uncontrollably. He has run a fever all day that bounced around between 102.6 and 103.3. Then, on top of that, he has chronic diarrhea and threw up all day. He has not eaten in days so the only thing he is throwing up is bile - which burns his throat. And did I mention the mouth soars? Yes, he now has mouth soars all over his throat and mouth and probably all the way down into his stomach - which is causing him to not want to swallow - so he keeps spitting up copious amounts of mucus. It is just terrible. It absolutely kills me to see him like this. Oh - and his ANC number plummeted from 2500 yesterday to only 120 today. Tomorrow they expect it to be about 0, which means he will not have the ability to fight an infection.

I pray to God that He helps him recover from this round of chemo tomorrow. He needs to eat. He needs to be able to keep SOMETHING down - especially the important drug Gleevec that is saving his life. He needs his kidneys to flush out all the drugs that are left in his system. He needs the fever to go away so he will stop shaking. He needs his ANC to quickly bounce back - and that may take a week. The nurse just informed me that the mouth soars won't go away until the ANC comes back. Uhhh. If they need to, they will put Grant on IV nourishment tomorrow.

Please pray with me. We really, really need to catch a break. I need my family to be under one roof for a week, or at the very least, for one weekend. Grant is such a strong little guy but I just don’t know how much of this he can take. I don’t want all of this to break his spirit.

I was talking with another mother tonight about how angry I get at this situation sometimes. The outcome of all of this better be that he is a happy, healthy little boy that does not have any serious long-term side effects. It is so hard to watch your child suffer through all of this. If I end up losing him, I will be so mad that I have put him and his little body through this war. I don’t want to torture him - and so many days feel like I am doing just that - torturing him and watching him suffer as we fight to save his life.