Pray for Grant

Wednesday, July 29 - 9:38 p.m.

Posted by Melanie McTaggart on Thursday, July 30, 2009
Grant's counts were high enough for chemo today. He is such a brave and strong little guy. This morning, Grant had a spinal tap, chemo injected into his spine, and then a bone marrow aspiration - all while being awake and with only a little sedation. He never cried!! He was just amazing!

We have been admitted and will receive the hospital chemo starting tomorrow. If he does not spike a fever from all of this, then we are expected to go home on Sunday! I am keeping my fingers crossed! This is the tough stuff. Please pray that he handles it all okay.

As far as the rest of us, we just had the best two days at home! Grant was his normal self. It felt so good to have to fuss at him. Isn't that terrible of me?? It really was good to see him being a bit of a stinker. He and Claire love to cut up together. They play together so well. Claire told me she was so glad to have "her best friend back." They played prince and princess a lot. Grant wore a cape, and with his sword and shield, was fighting dragons! It was just too cute.

I feel so blessed to have this opportunity to really enjoy the small stuff. I really do notice the little things more and have so much more appreciation for them. I wish every parent out there would stop for a second and really pay attention to the sound of your child's laughter or take hold of those little moments during the day that seem so normal. It is the normal that we crave so much now.

The other thing that seems more obvious to me these days is how fragile and short our lives are. Death seems to be in my face all the time. I pay attention to it now in a way I never did before. I "hear" it more in the news every morning. I watch other families on my floor deal with the loss of a child, and physically feel ill. I see the car accidents on the road and pray that everyone is okay and that there is not a child in any of the cars involved. It just sickens me to know the grief that someone here on earth has to go through when they lose a loved one.

This past weekend, I was blessed to be at my nephews baptism and so glad that I was there to hear the sermon. Dr. Pace at St. Luke's Methodist church touched me deeply. He talked about how walking with Christ through life is truly a roller coaster ride. He said that we all want to go to heaven. We all want to be saved. We just do not want God to screw up our lives. Not to shake them up or give us any rough times. I cannot begin to count how many times in my life I have prayed that God "keep all of my family and all of my friends, happy, safe, healthy and alive."  But rough times ARE apart of life and we can choose to be closer to God or to get angry and blame Him. Dr. Pace said that we could make the choice every day to get on the ride or just be the types of people who watch others take the ride. I guess David, Claire, Grant and I are on the ride and are willing to take it. The ups and the downs, the happy times and the times we are scared that we may one day have to deal with the loss of a child. We feel closer to God, to our family and to our friends because of the ride we are on. We have such strong sense of hope and no matter what, our ride will give us the strength it takes to get through this and the strength to help others that will need it in the future. Thank you to everyone that has climbed aboard the ride with us. We are so grateful that you have joined us and are helping us hang on!



 

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Melanie McTaggart I am the proud mom and Claire and Grant. I am so blessed to have them in my life!

Wednesday, July 29 - 9:38 p.m.

Posted by Melanie McTaggart on Thursday, July 30, 2009
Grant's counts were high enough for chemo today. He is such a brave and strong little guy. This morning, Grant had a spinal tap, chemo injected into his spine, and then a bone marrow aspiration - all while being awake and with only a little sedation. He never cried!! He was just amazing!

We have been admitted and will receive the hospital chemo starting tomorrow. If he does not spike a fever from all of this, then we are expected to go home on Sunday! I am keeping my fingers crossed! This is the tough stuff. Please pray that he handles it all okay.

As far as the rest of us, we just had the best two days at home! Grant was his normal self. It felt so good to have to fuss at him. Isn't that terrible of me?? It really was good to see him being a bit of a stinker. He and Claire love to cut up together. They play together so well. Claire told me she was so glad to have "her best friend back." They played prince and princess a lot. Grant wore a cape, and with his sword and shield, was fighting dragons! It was just too cute.

I feel so blessed to have this opportunity to really enjoy the small stuff. I really do notice the little things more and have so much more appreciation for them. I wish every parent out there would stop for a second and really pay attention to the sound of your child's laughter or take hold of those little moments during the day that seem so normal. It is the normal that we crave so much now.

The other thing that seems more obvious to me these days is how fragile and short our lives are. Death seems to be in my face all the time. I pay attention to it now in a way I never did before. I "hear" it more in the news every morning. I watch other families on my floor deal with the loss of a child, and physically feel ill. I see the car accidents on the road and pray that everyone is okay and that there is not a child in any of the cars involved. It just sickens me to know the grief that someone here on earth has to go through when they lose a loved one.

This past weekend, I was blessed to be at my nephews baptism and so glad that I was there to hear the sermon. Dr. Pace at St. Luke's Methodist church touched me deeply. He talked about how walking with Christ through life is truly a roller coaster ride. He said that we all want to go to heaven. We all want to be saved. We just do not want God to screw up our lives. Not to shake them up or give us any rough times. I cannot begin to count how many times in my life I have prayed that God "keep all of my family and all of my friends, happy, safe, healthy and alive."  But rough times ARE apart of life and we can choose to be closer to God or to get angry and blame Him. Dr. Pace said that we could make the choice every day to get on the ride or just be the types of people who watch others take the ride. I guess David, Claire, Grant and I are on the ride and are willing to take it. The ups and the downs, the happy times and the times we are scared that we may one day have to deal with the loss of a child. We feel closer to God, to our family and to our friends because of the ride we are on. We have such strong sense of hope and no matter what, our ride will give us the strength it takes to get through this and the strength to help others that will need it in the future. Thank you to everyone that has climbed aboard the ride with us. We are so grateful that you have joined us and are helping us hang on!